Chasing Pavements

i dont ask for things to be perfect, i know they never will be.
but cant they be just less than perfect?

i want to shut it out, lock up the memories and throw away the key.
but its never possible.

im living in fantasy world, dreamland.
telling and convincing myself things are fine.
but when it happens again,
reality crashes in and jolts me awake.

Dear God, you know i pray really hard at church everytime, for that same one wish. and ill continue praying.
please give me the strength.

Thank you Lord.