Chasing Pavements

no time to post.

dance party last fri was great, it being mel's bday and all, and the dancing was nice. even though we didnt know this year's mass dance moves. and something happened to mel that was very upsetting. mel, we'll always be here for you! there was flyer distribution on sat morn at clementi then it was trng and basic kayaking course at mac. whole day out. hmm sun was church in the morn. i got my pastoral attachment! 1045 mass wardening with eber. heh mich took up the 730 chinese mass! she says she's going back to sleep after getting home (: anwy it starts this sun. and i hafta wear formal and white shirt. considering that i have like limited white shirts, i predict that im gonna wear the same shirt almost every week. haha i think the guys got it much worse, white collar shirt plus long pants (: why do we need a uniform in the first place!! i finally got my sis's and my cny clothes with my mum after church. walked both the iseatans and went back to the first and finally got my stuff. haha i fell in love with this red polka dotted and white halter dress!! super duper uber nice and classy yet fun! but considering the price of $79 and that i would wear it only once or twice and keep it in my cupboard for me to admire, i didnt get it. took pictures of me in it tho. heh vain(:

sch starts again and i cant wait for the weekend. my daily routine - sch, trng, homework, sleep. i really want to revise my stuff and play the piano but its not how i want it to be. trng's not going well too. not's an understatement. by thurs, we gotta make the hard decision of whether the ip3s go back to A div :/ i really think we dont deserve them. then again, we would have absolutely zero chance in april if things continue like how it is now. and then we would let everyone down. today's trng and friendly race was not good, not good at all. i cried cos i felt that i had let myself down and the people who believed in me. not because of the fact that i capsized. it hurts so much when i believed that i could do it and i didnt. and im scared but showing my fear in front of the juniors wouldnt be good cos it would only frighten them more.

im sorry about today.
i'm really afraid of letting every one down.

putting on a mask isnt good