Chasing Pavements

today i was feeling hyper. first time in a long while where i got to experience the wonderful feeling of having time on my hand! got home at 330-ish. its the first time in year 2006 and the first time since goodness knows how many months. leaving and getting home when the sky is dark almost all week days is not fun. what people like sam and jade have! time. haha they sit beside me and sam's gonna suan me im sure. sadly, there has to something like ass week to spoil the whole thing. i was done with IH preparation, according to my standards, rather early. i hope everyone's essays turn out fine and i manage to write all my points down like crazy within the 50 mins. i even practiced piano! but sadly, i couldnt play my song properly any more cos of the utter lack of practice :/ and now im doing the stupid malay project due on thurs and titled 'makanan melayu'. waste of time and how on earth do i translate 'lemon grass' into malay other than direct translation!?!

and so i was doing my stuff and then i suddenly felt sad. like poof, for no reason. actually, yes, because of some stuff i read. i thought about how i wanted to help someone whom i would do everything and anything to help, but didnt know how to. and i thought about the team and mry. and i thought about my life, like what's in it? and freaked ass week. argh stupid random thoughts came invading my mind.

i feel like screaming my lungs and hear out. like a guy does at macR every sat morn without fail. to God, to the skies and the waters and nature. put down your worries and for that minute, release everything inside you. when you run out of breath, inhale only the freshness and goodness and be happy.
wouldnt it be beautiful.
but too bad life's never gonna be so straightforward.

tmr i'll be going for trng but i dont think i'll do that (:
gotta go church for Ash Wednesday mass after trng.

mmm i think i better get back to malay. if there was canoeing today, i'd prob be lying in bed with my glasses still on, books on the table and phone not charged cos i fell asleep. but there wasnt, so not really surprisingly, i dont feel really tired now. i think i'd go on till the wee hours of the morn (:

TIFF: ive linked you woman! full of love, i'd give you a squishy big hug! jia you :D