Chasing Pavements

I feel like I'm on a rollar coaster.

After the first test, I thought the door had slammed shut.
Then hope when nina got shortlisted, and lost hope when I didn't.
After the second one, I was sure the door had slammed shut and locked.

I just said yesterday - I'd given up on that dream.

And today, I got my chance, a shot at it.

I don't know what to feel. I don't want to get my hopes up and have it all come crashing down. I think sometimes things work in funny ways. Getting shortlisted so late, maybe its a chance for me to better prepare myself going for other interviews, time for me to figure out if its what I really want. And like nina said, a time for me to strengthen my faith in God. To trust and listen, because after all, He knows best.

(On a side note, my friend is going to get her pay increased to $80 a day while I'm still stuck at the same pay because she has accepted her uni course! And it doesn't look like mine's going to confirmed anytime soon! :/)